There is a beauty and clarity to late night talks, I wish that the human body doesn't have to sleep so I could experience it without the after effects knocking me out for most of the morning. If I had my way, Afternoons should be for sleeping. The hottest, most useless, agonising part of every 24 hours.

And I will be going home from Euge's place in that heat. Oh joy.

Odeurey has gotten attached (thankfully not engaged) so it would seem. I felt.. a certain sense of loss. Even though we do not have anything substantial between us to be lost. Perhaps the loss of opportunity? She's always been this dream that gives me hope and motivation to pick myself up when I am down, and she will continue to be. At least for awhile more. Awhile more.

Friendship is more multifaceted then I thought it was. Sometimes it scares me, the complexity. A strong urge to just jettison everything and everyone and seclude myself from such disturbing social constructions. But I know its the hysteria speaking due to the overexposure. Something like, the sun's a good thing generally, but too much causes skin cancer. I love my friends, but I have never been much of a socialiser to begin with. I'm really fine just being alone, although some company once in awhile is really, really nice. I need it to be simple though. Life is complex enough as it is already.