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Time waits not.
Monday, 18 August 2008

TIME WAITS NOT.

The past week has been quite crazy. I really thought that I had my I.S. out of the way and I could finally focus on mugging for the prelims and the A levels. But no, I have to redo it all over again. My sanity is hanging precariously on a thread. Worse, I didn't know it till yesterday. It was as if I had deluded myself, forced myself to be calm. But my thread was fraying. Alex finally helped me realise myself. My mind did not, could not acknowledge what my body language was saying. Yesterday was the proverbial last straw. Subjecting myself to a critical, cruel self analysis, light was finally shed on the fragile state of my mind.

I am becoming very short-tempered. My patience has reached an all time low. Its not that I do not enjoy your company, but more of "please don't waste my time, I have little as it is already" and "stop distracting me from what I must do". I would dearly love to sit at starbucks and chat with you all, free from the cares of the world. But I can't. Not now.

Soon, I will have to cut off all emotion before it overwhelms me. I apologise in advance to Alex, Yi Xiu and Eugene. The Joshua you know will go on a hiatus soon. He'll be back after the A levels. Hopefully. Forgive me for being very, very cold the next 3 months.

goodbye.

11:54 am