I just went to HMV @ citylink. Spent a long time being indecisive over getting utada hikaru: HEART STATION or yui: (I can't remember the title.)

yui's more rock while utada's more pop-ish. And I study slightly better with pop. So I got utada in the end. I'll go down and get yui's cd sometime soon though, cos its so damn good too. Why don't I just get both, you ask? Well, I got my da-jie (cousin) her ayumi cd + dvd: mirrocle. haha, so I didn't have enough! zzst. She better appreciate it x) hahahaha

Mom was being her usual pms-y self when she gets back. Pouring her bitchy-ness all over everyone. I decided to give her a dose of her own medicine. Hope she liked it. Not. In the end, she just got madder. She slapped sarah, and I got really, really pissed. I can understand why she's so f-ing mad with everything in her life, like its going out of control and all. But fuck, she is just like pong-pong. (zai, you know what I mean.) Grow up already, woman. You are fifty afterall.

You demand love, respect and obedience, like the generations of parents before you. But hell, in today's society, you can lose all that if you are a total bitch every freaking day. How can we love you, woman, if all you do is order us around like servants, treat us as strangers, and try to control every freaking thing in our life?! There's no need for a step-mother if you are around.

How can we love you, when you make no attempt to build a relationship with us? How can we respect you, when all we say to you is used as verbal weapons to scold us? Your fucking pride will be your downfall. 'Cos there will come a day, when my sisters will break free from you.

Violently. Just like I did.






Mother.

When your life is shattered beyond repair,
and every relationship dissolves in despair,
remember the days when we were still around,
miss those days, when you still had a chance
at respect and love.
But now its too late,
all that's left is hurt and hate.
You told yourself, that we wouldn't be around anyway
horde your money, save up everyday.
Its a self -fulfilling prophecy,
you see.
Your belief guides your actions,
and your actions make your beliefs come true.
So when regret consumes you,
and bitterness is all you have,
with a tear in my eye
for all the good memories that we could have had
if not for your fucking pride,
all I want to say is

I told you so.