This week has been another roller coaster ride again. And it hurts so bad to see her like this. i guess i'm experiencing what's common in all relationships huh.. beautiful heartache. first she's friendly, then she emos, then she's friendly again.. hella tiring..
waited outside math class for her (lunch break).. wanted very badly to talk to her too. waited, and waited. and waited somemore.. until she finally came out. she took a step in my direction, saw me, and headed the other way.
something broke inside me.
saw her in the library when i went to pass tze woon my kayaking one star course. Wanted to go over, but i needed to pass tze woon the form first. by the time i was done, she had gone.. God. my mind a whirl, it was all i could do not to scream. instead of curling into the foetal position, i did the next best thing: sleep away the pain..
after K.I. lesson, she was friendly again, as if nothing had ever happened. like i read too much into the small little insignificant actions. Yep, maybe i did. but it sure hurt like hell. guys are pathetic.